Part 5: bed of roses

Hitori woke up to find Tanou is not around. His place is well arranged and his futon is folded-up in his cupboard. Hitori quickly gets up and bath. He went straight to school after that.

He is never good at math but, he managed to pull through this test with the formulas that he had memorized. He thought of Tanou a lot. He wonders why Tanou had cried for him. Tanou is a really caring person. He cares so much of me. But why is it so? He thought.

When the school bell rang indicating that the school’s out, Hitori got out of the school compound quickly. He is shocked to see Tanou is waiting for him with his car park outside near the gate. There are two other guys sitting at the back seat. They are looking at him. They had that same hideous smile on their face the way that Tanou used to always have. Hitori quickly get to him.

“Why are you here, Tanou?” Hitori asked.

“I thought of asking you out.” Tanou said.

“But, I have work to do.”

“Oh… That. My mom called me. She said that there’ll be no business today.”

“Why? What’s wrong?” Hitori is worried.

“There you go worrying again…” Tanou said. “Everything is fine. She just wanted you to have day-off, that’s all…”

“Oh come on! Look at that! Tanou is making up lies for this little cutie…” One of the guys from the back seat said. He got long black hair tied up high and dark eyes. “What a real cute school boy you’re dating this time…” He said again.

The other with short brown hair and blue eyes laugh and say; “don’t say that, Makoto. He’s gonna get real angry…” He said a warning in a cynical way.

“Shut up!” Tanou said to them. He then looked at Hitori. “Get in.” He ordered him.

“Wait a minute! What lie are you giving me? I don’t want you to think that this is something that you can joke around about, okay? It will interfere my job!” Hitori is angry.

“Wow, I’ve never seen you this angry…” Tanou said.

“He’s cute when he’s angry. Right, Kanawa?” Makoto said, interrupting them.

Kanawa only smiles and looked at Hitori with his blue eyes.

“He is right…” Tanou said to Hitori. He then places his right hand on Hitori’s cheek. “I am the one who asked my mother to give you a day off. Sorry about that lie. But she allowed you to have a day-off. She liked the idea of me taking you out. She thinks we’re having an affair, you know? Well, she’s wrong. It’s not an affair.” Tanou said and plant a soft kiss on Hitori’s lips in front of everyone, in the middle of the daylight, without shame. He liked to see that Hitori is astounded. He then continues his words; “it is a serious one…”

Hitori didn’t yell at him. He is in shock by what Tanou had just done to him but he didn’t say anything. He’s not even angry. He just looked down, blushing and get inside beside the driver’s seat. He can hear that Tanou’s friends are chuckling behind them and make sounds of awe towards Tanou. He just ignores them.

Tanou is surprised to see that Hitori didn’t yell or get angry at him for kissing him like that. He is enjoying this. He likes me too, I guess. Last night, I was afraid to touch him and had my plan cancelled. But tonight, I won’t be afraid. I will even force him if he resists. He thought and smiles to himself enjoying his imagination.
***
They went to a real expensive restaurant for dinner. Tanou said that he’ll pay for everything. Hitori felt bad about it but could not express it because Tanou will call him ‘worrycake’. He used that term for him now when he is worried over some things. It came from Makoto’s mouth. He gave that idea to Tanou since Hitori is always worrying over small things. Now, Hitori will just keep his mouth shut. Makoto is always teasing him and Tanou while Kanawa will ignite the flames even more using his cynical way of teasing them. Tanou didn’t seem to mind what they say. He would just laugh over it. He seems to enjoy it.

Kanawa is Tanou’s senior, he is half-blood American. That explained why he had a pair of blue eyes and original brown hair. Makoto is in the same year with Tanou. He is his friend since high school. Though they tease a lot, Hitori can sense that they have good hearts.

“You know, Tanou used to sexually harass cute boys at our school when he was young.” Makoto said to Hitori.

Hitori is shocked to learn that but he didn’t say anything.

“Did he ever do anything to you?” Makoto asked.

Hitori thought of last night when Tanou had hugged him, crying with him. “No.” He lied.

“Wow! What a surprise! Not yet, I guess…” He said knowingly in a teasing manner.

“It’s like holding a sand in you hand. You didn’t want to grasp it tighter ‘cause it will slip away. You just need to hold it steadily and it’ll stay there. So, just let it comes naturally, right Tanou? How long have you been holding your desire?” Kanawa asked him cynically.

“So long…” Tanou answered candidly, being honest over things. And they all laugh out loud.

Hitori looked at him in astonishment. And Tanou will just look into Hitori’s eyes fearlessly, indicating him danger. Hitori feels that his heart is beating faster than usual. He is afraid. He gets a feeling that tonight will be different than his normal nights.

“Are you a virgin, Hitori?” Kanawa asked.

Hitori didn’t know how to answer that. He is shy. He felt his cheek is burning again. It’s getting red. He’s blushing again. He started blushing only after last night. He never felt this way before. He never blushed like this before.

“He never had a girlfriend before. He never even feels like it. So, I guess he is a virgin.” Tanou said.

“Tanou!” Hitori said suddenly as if not wanting them to know. But then, he went back to silence when they all started laughing at him.

“Don’t worry, little Hitori. I think Tanou will be gentle on you.” Kanawa said and laughs.

“Oh no. I think he’ll go wild! You’re gonna be in great pain! Physically!” Makoto said, laughing too along with the rest of them.

I’m living in a cruel world…, Hitori thought to himself, bearing their teasing. He got to get used to this. He had become their subject of conversation all night. Only a time or two they had talked of their art works. He can’t take it…

***

After sending both Makoto and Kanawa home, Tanou is now alone in the car with Hitori. Silence filled the air as the car drove along in darkness.

“Tanou, your friends… they really like to tease, huh?” Hitori said, trying to start the conversation.

“Yes.” Tanou answered him shortly.

“I feel slightly in fear of tonight.” Hitori said expressing his feelings. “I don’t know why.”

“It’s normal, Hitori.” Tanou said simply without having to know of what Hitori actually meant.

“What do you mean by that?” Hitori asked, puzzled.

Tanou only smiles his usual same old hideous smile. “I have something to show you tonight.” Tanou said.

“What is it?”

“You’ll see when we get home.”

***

They are in the room now. Tanou turns on the light. And Hitori saw it. It is the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. It is a painting; a painting of Hitori asleep on a bed. The bed is full of roses’ petals. And moonlights shone his face. He knew that it is the moonlight even without a picture of the moon in it.

“Do I look like that when I’m asleep?” Hitori asked.

“Yes. I always had a good memory over things that I wanted to draw. It’s like I captured the moment in my head and I add some of my imagination to it. Here, the imagination is the roses… What do you think of it?”

“It’s beautiful. Just like the paintings of your rose-garden. You always draw authentic things. It almost makes me feel like I can touch it. This one, too, seems like it’s alive.” Hitori said.

“I appreciate that comments better than my lecturers’.” Tanou said truthfully.

“But, why didn’t you paint us together?” Hitori asked suddenly.

“Oh. I just didn’t want you to get angry or anything.” Tanou said honestly.

“I would’ve liked it.” Hitori said being honest with himself and Tanou.

“Okay then. I’ll draw that for you.” Tanou said, determined.

“Would you want to capture the moment, then?” Hitori asked.

Tanou is surprised by Hitori’s sudden daring attitude. “Yes. I’d liked that.” He said and pulls Hitori closer to him. He kisses Hitori, soft at first but then it gets deeper and wilder. He can’t hold it any much longer. Hitori did not fight him. He only kisses him back. It’s obvious of how inexperienced it is of Hitori. But, Tanou liked it. This innocence will be obliterated tonight by his lust and his love towards Hitori. He pushes Hitori down on the floor, getting on top of him, pinning Hitori’s hands down, and continues kissing him deeply and wildly. He can hear Hitori moans. He enjoyed it.

“Tanou…” Hitori called Tanou, breaking the kiss for a while.

“Yes…” Tanou said in a whisper. He kisses Hitori’s cheek.

“That painting you’ll draw… make it a bed full of roses too…” Hitori said.

Tanou only smiles and he’ll get it started. “You are mine, now.” Tanou said. “No one else will ever take you away from me. You are all mine.” Tanou said possessively.

Hitori didn’t say a word. He just nodded and let himself falls into Tanou’s arms. He let himself becomes Tanou’s possession forever… Tomorrow is not just another day. It is a new beginning…

…THE END…